Saturday, June 20, 2009

The Path Less Taken

My path hasn't been easy for me. I was born unexpectedly( my mom had several miscarriages before I came along). My mom was also 41 when she had me. God, it seems, has been in me stong since birth. I overcame many obstacles and have been gifted with many things. I am a only child, not spoiled, I guarantee that(South American folk don't believe in spoiling there As a young child, I knew I was different in many ways. For one I could see things before they happened. I could see people that others couldn't and to top it off I knew I was born to be another gender then the one that was assigned to me at birth.
As a young person, I used these differences to fill up my sometime boring life. I was able to sit and have full conversations with my 'imaginery' friends and through that, in middle school came up with great plays and commercial work for my creative communication class(passed with a A+...LOL).
However, it also drove me a little crazy because at the time I had a feeling it ran in my family, but my grandmother had passed and no one else would talk about it, except the one time a long time passed family member came to me and my mom told me to tell her I couldn't go with her.
In my early adult years, these gifts led to drinking and drugging because I didn't know how to control them. I thought they would just go away if I didn't focus on them and if I stayed drunk enough. It didn't help one bit. I was just a drunk who could see stuff and no one would heed my warnings because they thought I was out of it.
It took time, but I finally realized that these gifts were a blessing, but still I need to learn how to see, analyse and hold on to things I see and how to properly communicate with those I can talk to. Honestly, it is living people who give me more trouble.
Luckily, without realizing, I have found someone who can help me and for that I am grateful.
The last few days have been filled with drama, but gratefully, I have people who are there to help me through and to remind me who I am and what my purpose in life is. To those individuals- my Angels, I am most thankful.
I don't know if this blog makes any sense to folks who read it, but its a reminder for me of wher I come from, where I'm at and where I'm going.
God Bless.

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