LOST IN YOU

With all that we have been through, you are still in my heart. All I can think about is being with you the way I see us in my dreams-two people enjoying each other and our daily lives. I believe that if we both think honestly about present and our future, we will see that we belong together and inspite of all that we have put each other through, we will be fine. Our lives have become intertwined with one another in a very short time. We both know how to push the buttons, whether correct or not, that get one another to react both postively and negatively. We fit like a glove and yet neither of us seem to want to admit it. Why can't we be like the other couples I've read about in our community? Why can't you allow me the Daddy I am and love me anyway? Why can't you trust that I always have your best interest in heart? Do you not see and feel the love have for you? Why does it seem like it is so easy for you to let it go, though I have and heard you cry about again and again? You are close to me and yet you seeem so far away.

We want to be together, yet we keeping pulling each other a part. When will stop being so destruct both to our and one another and just one another as we are? I continue to look forward to that day.

GOD'S PROTECTING PRESENCE IS IN ME AND AROUND ME

God's Protecting Presence is within and around me. The Creator has never left its creation. Wherever I am God is. This the truth about each of us; but I must practice this, know this, accept this, feel this so that nothing causes me to fear, to be discouraged, to panic,. I must make this firm in my mind. I must build this into my consciousness.

"God's Protecting Presence is within and around me. I will fear no evil for God is here." For those I am concerned about, I decree for them: God's Protecting Presence is with you and around you; there is nothing to fear for God is with you.

How wonderful it is to know God, the only Power and Presence is with you and is protecting you. This brings a feeling of security and tranquility. Thanks God for this awareness. Thanks God for your protecting Presence. Thank you, Wisdom-in me, through me, as me. And so it is.

"I will say of the Lord, He is my refuge and my fortress; my God; in him I will trust."-Psalm 91:2(Lamsa's Aramaic Translation)

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INFINITE INTELLIGENCE ACTS THROUGH ME AND MAKES RIGHT DECISIONS

Frequently we find ourselves at a crossroad and we do not know which way to turn. We may be given the right direction. The inner voice may be telling us which way to go, but we are disobedient. We doubt the answer we have received. We have not practiced and developed listening to the still small voice and following its direction. We doubt our ability to make right choices and take right action. We should practice going in silence.

Relax, become still. Recognize the Presence of God. "God, reveal to me what I need to know about the situation? God, what is the first step I should take? God, what is the truth about this situation?" Expect an answer. You will receive an answer. "I am one with Divine Mind. I know what to do and I do it." Thanks God for answered prayer. Thank you, Wisdom-in me, through me, as me. And so it is.

"And the Lord shall guide you continually and satisfy your soul with rich food; and strengthen your bones; and you shall be like a watered garden, and like a spring whose water fails not."-Isaiah 58:11(Lamsa's Aramaic Translation)

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GOD WILL SEE ME THROUGH

You may be in a situation and you feel insecure, depressed, not knowing which way to turn. Your Father-Mother-God, who knows all, can do it all, is everywhere present, is waiting for you to ask and listen so He can help you. If you do not listen, you will not hear. Take time to be still. God will see you through. It is not God's will that any of His children should perish.

He wants you to enjoy good health. He wants you to be prosperous. He wants you to express His attributes. God will see you through, no matter what it is. He is able and willing. Let it go. Thank you, Wisdom-in me, through me, as me. And so it is.

"For the mountains shall be brought low and the hills bent downward; but my kindness shall not depart from you, neither shall the covenant of your peace be removed, says the Lord, the Merciful One."-Isaiah 54:10(Lamsa's Aramaic Translation)

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Tiger gets Scolded by Masters Chairman-Who Cares?

The Chairman of the Master's Golf Tournament has taken it upon himself to scold Tiger and say he isn't a good role model. Frankly, who gives a damn. The only role our children should have are their parents and no is paying enough attention to them to make sure they are doing a good job. Why- because everyone is concentrating on what Tiger, Paris and Sandra and Jesse James are up to today. If it's not them then it is some other celebrity who is on our brain. tiger shouldn't be a role model; Charles Barkley once said, when approached with a statement about being a role model, 'I'm no damn role model. Parents are suppose to be the role models.' We need to put as much energy into making sure parents are performing up to the standards we set for celebrities, officials and politician. If we did the world might be a better place.

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Which of Me Is More Important? All of ME

This weekend i wanted and needed to take time to figure out what i need to do with myself and how to proceed within the ministry i have been given to care for. as i proceed within my leather life, i have begun to see many changes within myself. i have, yes Goddess, tried to fight them, not in the most pleasant of ways and am becoming unsuccessful at trying to fight off what is an obvious part of self. though the initial part of my ministry was geared towards the transgender community only, i have lately been attracting questions from many within the leather lifestyle. T/they have been mostly African American submissives, who i guess feel comfortable speaking with another submissive, in ministry. within our leather community i have noticed that submissives may only feel comfortable asking certain things of other submissives and questions of Spirituality are and can be quite personal. some Dominants either do not have the proper answers and because of that feel the need to throw their Dominance around when it is actually a time that requires compassion and understanding. so, that may be another reason God has placed me here.

i say all of this to say that my audience has either changed or expanded and i am, admittingly, at a crossroads and honestly a bit confused. i am still relatively new to the leather community, but not to ministry and workings of God. i have learned, for the most part, to go with the flow. i will admit, though, i am at a lost on how to proceed from this point. it is important for me to bring freedom of spirituality to as many people as i possibly can and if God is showing me that a certain venue is taken care of and/or closed, i am willing to go in the direction that is needed of me at this time. there is also the possibility that God is showing me that i need to widen my work and that i am not meant to focus on just one group of people, but on all that require my help(that may require a name change of my ministry...LOL).

it is also a way for me to deal with the feelings and situations that i have had bottled up within me for a long time. many people will find some things i will soon do unpleasant and difficult to handle, but i put nothing past God when HE needs U/us to take a better look at how W/we view others around U/us.

getting back on topic, if i ever really got off-i am also aware that many transgender people of color are not yet ready to move away from the traditions of church, even within the LGB&T church communities. those individuals of color(not necessarily transgender)within the leather community seem to be more open minded and are willing to follow different paths of spirituality. they understand the connection between spirituality& bdsm/kink/leather.

to this end, it is time for me to decide where and how to move forward with The Joshua TransGeneration. i do feel the need to concentrate on those within my leather community. whether this what will happen has not yet been decided, but the final decision will soon be made. if you have an opinion, feel free to let me know.